With a few days till the end of 2017 we often find ourselves reflecting on the year that has gone by. We reflect on all of our decisions, successes, but also our failures and our dark times. Saying: 'New year, new me' doesn't change anything. You have to do it in order to get what you want. When you wait until the new year, you're too late.
The time to make a change is now. Procrastination is something I know all too well. Lots of days I have said: 'I can do it later, I can do it tomorrow' Because we all always assume that we have a tomorrow. But the truth is, that making a change has to happen now. There might not be a tomorrow and that's something we must never forget.
I feel like I'm being a bit of a Debby downer right now and a bit cliche but it is true. We are afraid to make a change, because we don't know what it will do.
For 2018, I have to make changes, be honest, don't we all?
My number one focus has to be school, besides that I want to create enough time for my writing, myself and other passions I've wanted to pursue for a long time. I started off writing at the beginning of this month and noticed that writing really does help.
I have plenty of articles still in line waiting to be written and finished so 2018 will also (hopefully) be filled with lots of stories to tell. I started writing in a journal everyday to later on see how I was that year. I donated a bunch of things to a local shop, that felt good. I threw away so many things, learning to let go.
But most of all, I started too late. I started in the last month of the year and I should have started at the beginning of the year, but then again I didn't know I had to make a change. I've been embracing this thing called minimalism and I've been taking steps to reduce and simplify my life and so far it has been quite interesting, I'd done research about minimalism and noticed that I don't miss any of the items I threw away. I don't feel bad for throwing it away or giving it away, I feel good. When you're 16 years old, still living under your parents roof, your parents providing for you, it's difficult to try and become a minimalist, because in the end, you have to rely on your parents. Every big thing I do or want to do has to have my parents' permission.
My mom disagrees and finds 'minimalism' ridiculous. Nonetheless, I have pursued it and still am. I listened to a podcast the other day from The Minimalists where they were talking about how to deal with people that aren't minimalists themselves. I found out that minimalism is really a 'me' project.
To put yourself first, to put your own priorities first, to not think about everyone else for once and focus on you.
That is also my plan for this upcoming year. To really focus on me. You should too. I've always noticed that whenever people come up to me and ask me how I'm doing, I reply simply with a: "Good" and smile at them. But there's been a lot of dark times this past year, lots of bad days and I can't seem to shake them. However life is like a rollercoaster and bad days and dark times are part of that rollercoaster so we all just need to embrace them.
This year had it's many ups and downs. Mistakes were made, our promises made and broken, the times we opened ourselves up to new adventures or closed ourselves down for the fear of getting hurt. Every year life gives you another chance. Another chance to love more, do more, to do better and to let the past behind us. Make a change, risk it, take the opportunity, be bold, but most of all be brave.
I wish you a very good year and hopefully it will be an unforgettable one filled with lots of good memories, joy, laughter, but most of all love. That undying love that you have for one another. Embrace it and show it, everyday.